today was another uneventful day... finished school at 1.. slacked around at the opposite kopitiam with janson and yu sheng. went off around 3 plus. reached northpoint and had my lunch there bought some toiletries and ya went home to do revision for cmaths 1. seriously, i'm kinda getting bored with poly life.. its so routine like. you wake up, go to sch then you just wanna go home, rest and then get down to projects and revision. then if you work, its just as bad. but really i need to work also and DEFINITELY some job that adds value to my life.. not just some sales job in a shop kinda setting? ya.

anyway.. i have always been 90% rite about models.. haha not gonna touch on it more. =) oh ya juvone finally sent me that gay pic of me during CMSY lab.. haha here it is























woohoo.. LENON HAS A CONTESTANT!!!
signing off

time: 2104pm
date: thursday 240507

today was just another one of those days. had to wake up early again.. drag myself out of bed and start the day. did com skills presentation on Saudi Arabia... what the hell.. lame la. so today finished at 11.. then went to the library, met Rosanne. she's sweet and nice, very pleasant personality. easy on the eye. and yeah chatted like nobody's business.. coz i thought she was taking a break... talked bout clubbing and yeah, that's as far as it gets for now .. haha..(ya miss rosanne told me to write this down. but its quite true.. haha)

later on, met up with feshal and maggie for lunch at bugis. had chicken rice and laksa one after the other at Tong Seng coffeshop. then went home.. talked to my buddy.. he gave me some insight. one man can have many pretty female friends, but at the end of the day, he only needs one to love him whole heartedly. take me for example... when i go for NS.. how many of these friends will understand the shit i will go through and will stick with through thick and thin? well.. we'll see in future who will be that Angel.. thats about it for now.
cheers

time: 1051 pm
date: wednesday 230507

i was just thinking today... so many questions running through my mind. sometimes its the self conscious mind that throws me the questions. is it my image? is it the way i communicate? is it the way i present myself? it cant be. but why? all these years and i don't know why. its kinda pathetic actually.

how many people have i seen that fall in and fall out. it really makes me wonder. even assholes get them. everybody tells me the same shit.. i am so sick of hearing it. all the more it makes me not wanna believe in it. they all say: "the time will come, the time will come, the time will come, the time will come.." what the fuck... its not that i am impatient its just that how many years has it been already?? what am i to do? leave it to fate??? balls to you i would say. or is it true that i am already classified as an AFC? well i know PUAs would say that but.. come on, in life we have to be realistic right? not many people know the truth. my best friend thinks im some kinda social butterfly. sure i may know a lot of people but they just come and go come and go, thus the questions that are running through my head. of course i do have the confidence. but fuck, it does not seem to be helping. i won't say i am desperate. i may sound like one but think about it.. all these years and i don't have a good reason?? cut me some slack. and definitely i don't just take anyone. uh huh.. are my standards too high? can't be. im realistic enough. and i have told people what my standards are like. its obviously realistic.

maybe i should learn some things from nathaniel ( childhood buddy by the way). well it just seems that throughout these years there never seemed to be someone that suits the bill. im not being emotional, im just curious to know why thats all. all i need is my questions answered. thats all i need damn it. sometimes you get "them" complaining as well. same thing, always asking why. every now and then i would put deep thought into this. NOT ALL THE TIME.. its called self reflection.. wtf.. some of you guys might probably be laughing your asses off! oh well oh well.... again its unanswered.. when will i get the answer? Oh please God tell me!!

there's this song that i listen to and i find that it does speak of how i feel. the first verse goes like this:
verse:
Lead me where the vultures are waiting
Close my eyes fade into death
Slide me down where demons are hungry
For the first time the pain won't last.

Is there a flare in the middle of the desert
Would it please guide me home
I'm lost and found, but now im forgotten.

chorus:
I'm not afraid to be alone,
I give you my heart speaking
Its true that the earth and the muses
They know your neigh

I'm not afraid to be alone
I give you my word screaming
It's true that one day, this present phase
Will fade away...

verse:
Day breaks and the night fades away
Leaves me with an empty brain
I'm sitting down when the silence seems unto me
Break down, I feel it again..

Are we the hopes that you've all forgotten
Lay on my back and i dream of screams
Will we ever be the same

chorus

Are we the hopes that you've all forgotten
I dream of screams will we ever be the same?

chorus(x2)

blah blah blah.. im too lazy to type the rest.. but yeah you should get the idea. alright thats it.

time: 0137 AM
date: tuesday 220507

CCN day.. wth.. managed to sell one box of donuts and all the drinks also sold out, but not sure how much we made. it was dumb, fun,boring,crap all at one shot. so can you imagine how it feels like? yeah you should get my drift.

then took a cab rushed back home, bathed then went out again and dropped by suntec city, saw her , she smiled back and i winked back.. yup. that's it then went to clarke quay for cg afterthat went cine with david to have supper. and back home. uneventful day but yet eventful.. huh?? haha

if you guys were wondering why there aren't any photos yet, that's because I'm not a cam whore.. goodness..

time: 0309 AM
date: saturday 190507

thursday is usually my lucky day, when i get lucky and all unfortunately there isn't much today because it was just another boring day, i mean seriously i don't wanna keep blogging boring stuff you know.. readers will get bored and most of all I will get bored. had golf lesson today and wasn't really good because i couldn't hit the ball nicely today. just couldn't. and i seemed so noob today.

i really have nothing much to say. oh well............................ so much for a lucky day

time: 1015 pm
date: thursday 170507

now im starting another blog... a new one, with more meaning, more purpose and more fulfilling.. HOPEFULLY.. let me begin by starting 2 days ago. what happened 2 days ago? i had my Cmaths 2 class test. well it was pretty do-able managed to do most of the questions and guess what, i met mt tutor at the bus stop on the way home.. AND she told me i passed!! so damn happy la. well, its my 2nd shot so if i don't pass then i won;t have a bloody good excuse why i did not. so yeah it made my boring day pretty sweet. oh and the sweetness didn't stop there. i met up with this girl from sch..sweet looking. gorgeous. and ya, the list goes on. and on. and on. went to tampines mall to have dinner. pizza hut. goodness, i haven't had that in a pretty long while. so it was good.

so what more can i say after a boring-turned-not-too-bad day? quite a bliss i would say.
the following day.. tuesday.. i went for PRSP lecture for the 1st time since the new semester started.. wow. but it's because it was coincidental that on that day i was supposed to do a project at one but was postponed to three at the last minute. lecture ends at one. i had reached school at 11.45 am. what do i do within 12 to 3 if i don't go for lecture? yeah you get the idea. after lecture, hung out with the dudes from my other class and had lunch i went to the lab to play games. haha.. interesting.

TODAY!!!.. went for lunch with joseph to SUNSHINE plaza. the wanton mee that is good, really good. i kid you not. after that went to suntec city to try and look out for a friend, but couldn't find her so we went back to bugis so joseph can buy a bag for his sister. then came back home played dota. lol. alright that's it for today..

time: 1018 pm
date: wednesday 160507